Consequences lay on my desk in my room. This book I could vaguely remember was about a small boy who didn’t speak up when things around him were not okay and even though his life was not directly effected those around him suffered dearly. I tried to control the large amount of ironic thought that hung over me. I began to read it. At first I felt like I should have grabbed a different book one for adults. But it occurred to me that Ryan would have known I would be coming to his house to burn eventually. Then I flipped through the book rapidly. There was a small sticky note on page 232. The note read “read yourself and your will read others” I was confused how this would help me. I didn’t understand how this was supposed to change my perspective. Then I saw a sentence underlined on the same page “How did you learn this?” I froze. How did I learn this behavior.  I almost felt robotic at this point. Without thinking I began to write.

We got called in today at 3 p.m. to a house on second street. I new this house my friend Ryan used to lived there. Sadly, this was not the first time I had to go into a friends home to burn their books. As I proceeded in the house they had Ryan on the ground pinned like a murderer. I heard him yell Tommy help. I stilled, but avoided I contact. They began to pull him to the police vehicle apparently he was distributing as well has storing books. This was a double offence and will cause major problems for Ryan in the near future. At the door he yelled consequences. At first I thought he was just babbling about his mistake or warning me to help. But it occurred to me “consequences” was a book we read as children it was Ryans favorite. I moved quickly and quietly into his room and felt under his bed and low and be hold it was the book.

When I decided to become a fire fighter I was around 28 I am now 32 years old and until recently I never regretted or even questioned the chose to burn books for society. Recently, I have been contemplating the idea of reading. We throw the word around as if it doesn’t have a darker meaning. We often in daily life read into things. Additionally, we also read images and video. If reading is what is corruption then with how society is wired you will have to literally blind them to control them. I ask myself now are we being blinded? Even if the government was intentionally doing what they thought was best and didn’t intervene fear and the idea around it would persuade one not to read after this reaction. SO tonight I will read I will read the next book I see when we are called into work today regardless of consequences and fear. I will be blind no more.

The main thing we want these children to understand is that we want to prevent an intellectual inequality. We have found that this bazaar thirst for knowledge is one of the key components to peoples suffering. Or even the reverse then don’t know enough to function properly in society so then suffer. By controlling the exact input into our students we control this uneven flow of knowledge and prevent suffering. I find that being the main push for me when I burn. As a young child I struggled in the old schooling system. I often found myself longing to leave and a deep disdain for information. I just wanted to go on with my routine with out being notice and yet because I was academically secondary to my fellow students I would be subjected to ridicule by not only the class but the teacher. People don’t need to suffer like this. So I am aware of the lesser thinking people are at developed though this method. But the government reminds us of the previous pain we have felt and I understand why we created these specific roles in which we follow.