Consequences lay on my desk in my room. This book I could vaguely remember was about a small boy who didn’t speak up when things around him were not okay and even though his life was not directly effected those around him suffered dearly. I tried to control the large amount of ironic thought that hung over me. I began to read it. At first I felt like I should have grabbed a different book one for adults. But it occurred to me that Ryan would have known I would be coming to his house to burn eventually. Then I flipped through the book rapidly. There was a small sticky note on page 232. The note read “read yourself and your will read others” I was confused how this would help me. I didn’t understand how this was supposed to change my perspective. Then I saw a sentence underlined on the same page “How did you learn this?” I froze. How did I learn this behavior.  I almost felt robotic at this point. Without thinking I began to write.